today well kinda yesterday i just havent gone to sleep yet . marked a time in my life that is evr changeing .i moved all the stuff iown out of the apt where i and the man i love dto death once resided-in love and mostly unbalanced trama.i truley hope he finds what it is he feels that he is missing .and i i know that i loved him and gave him my best .guess it just wanst good enough for him ......

i really miss him being alone sux MAJORLY ..

i dont know what to belive anymore .i belive that he is sorry and realizes what he did hurt me but i think he doesnt care,in the sence thathe wants to continue his eatra curicular activities -i guess there al he has now .it seriously saddens me to know ive lost a part of me so great that i would consider taking my own life .i was that depressed . im getting better now ,its just really hard .thankGOD i have friends and family that care -i wouldnt be alive if it wernt for them -no drama just honesty

i have a new site i will update periodicaly here but most of it will b on here www.myspace.com/solongngoodnight    yes i have jumped on the trendy bandwagon .i hope this all come s to somthing incredibly good . take care untill next time           !*sheena~* 

Currently Listening The Fat of the Land By The Prodigy breath/smack my bitch up see related

well... interesting isnt going to describe the events that have past in the previous two days ...

i feel tons lighter i got to talk to ...lets call him "an old friend" that i have wanted to talk to for GOD 2 years.it broke my heartto know i hurt him so bad. i hope it is the begining to getting back the friendship we lost due to ....stupidity and mistakes.- ive missed him .

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anywho who ,i think im going to move back home.dont get me wrong i love richard to death ,but i think its time for a change .it might hurt to sleep and know he isnt there but thats the price i have to pay to find out if we are supposed to be together . wish life was eaiser to understand ...but as somone told me the othernight "life isnt fair you just have to go on "-guess its true ...

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today i will get up go to work .come home .and decide how im going to make sure he will be ok without me.-i cant just take eveything and leave him with nothing.:::::sigh:::::::::

cant keep doing this you know ,its just too hard .

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well i better go now n get to bed ,so i can go to work ...

and to my friend "you know who u r" i know you will call me soon .i hope you do -sheena

Currently Listening Candyass By Orgy blue monday see related

another quick question.

senario-(its your anniversary)

say you and your love have been together a long tyime like say 2 years..and you went out of your way to make sure they got thier fav food and scent to wear and took them to dinner at a verry nice resturaunt.and they didnt even so much as make you a card?

1.what would be the reasoning behind it?-and would "i dont know " be a permitted answer?

2.would you feel ripped off not only emotionaly but  also materialy(they didnt get your ass anything)

3.if you did feel ripped off would that be considered selfish?

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SO my grams has been in arkansas and pensylvainia (i think thats how you spell it) for the last 2 weeks .its cool tho she bought me this kick ass dressing that they make my hand and bottle at this little barn shop in amish town .

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ive been sick off  and on for the past month everyone else says im preg but i think its my milk alergy coming back to bite me in the ass

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humm...a BUNCH of my frineds came to my house like saturday to hang out and catch up on old times .it was way fun my one freind candice had a baby boy!!-congrats to her(shes the last one i expecte dyo have a baby we all thought she was lezbo!)  but yea it was really nice to see old friends-then we (dick n me) to the bowling alley to send off his friend harper(got exceptedto MIT - hes super genious or somthing)he left sunday night.so they all got drunk off of those "adios muther fucker "things-whatever all they were doing was giggleing and calling eachother gay -and bowling verry badly.all in all it was a ok day.

i suppose u should be going back to the DMV site to register my car for 06

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later -sheena

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Currently Listening Garage, Inc. By Metallica so FUCKING what see related

i had this CD burned with a bunch of really great songs.songs that just make me want to smash shit .anywho who .....its got this one song by metalica "so fucking what"-great song funny as hell !! and the song "push it" by staic x another triumph for the rock world it evokes like emotion out of me and its great .

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    SO  heres the lyrics to "SO FUCKING WHAT"

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SO fucking what !

well ive been to hastings ive been to brighton..ive been to eastport too

so what ?! so what?!

and ive been here and ive been there ive been every fucking where so what?! so what?so what so what so what .so what so what so what you boring little punks !

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who cares ? who cares what you do ? who cares ? who cares about you?! you ? you ? you?

ive fucked a queen ive fucked  bach ive even sucked an old mans cock SO WHAT?

ive fuck a seat ive fucked a goat i ran my cock right down its throaght SO WHAT?

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ive drunk that and ive druck this ive eeven spewed up a pint of piss SO WHAT?!

ive had skank ive had speed ive jacked up untill i bleed SO WHAT?! SO WHAT?!

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ive had crabs ive had lice ive had the CLAP and that aint nice so what ?! so what?!

ive fucked this ive fucked that ive even fucked a school girls cat so what?!so what?!

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-great song there .i would type the lyrics to push it but mu wee little fingers are sore

hummm whats  new?......................thinking........................................................................

ahhhh i know i was interviewed for the accounting position at wal*mart yestrerday along with the credit card person

in other words if i dont get one position i will definatly get the other.so! if i dont get the accounting position i will get the credit cared position ! whoo hooo! ......so thats some good news!

anyweho WHY DONT YOU HAVE SOME DIRTY HOTY SEX WITH Me it AInt LIKE IM ASKIN YOU TO GIVE IT UP FO FREE !!!!!!!! baby get on you knees !!!

Currently Listening Hot Fuss By The Killers hot fudge see related

i would like to start this one off with a question.....

**if you were to lie to the one you love about somthing VERRY important but ,the reason you wiothheld and lied was to "not upset them"-is this right?

__anywho ha ,this past week has been pretty fun .we(amber ,richard,matt,kira and i )have been going to this hooka bar about..5 mins from our casa.amber locked her keys in the car,the weired indian guys came out and broke in and unlocked it for her .wen went to dennys and plyed bullshit .kira SUCKS at that game due to the simple fact you can read her asslike a book.im not even going to get into that.to night i suppose everyones tired from partying hardy for like a week starit so yea that where we are right now

**new upcoming news***

sept somtime we are going camping *******hooray!!

so looking forward to that

well tata for now

]OH YEA {i got a new celuarmphone

---later sheena