Currently Listening The Fat of the Land By The Prodigy breath/smack my bitch up see related

well... interesting isnt going to describe the events that have past in the previous two days ...

i feel tons lighter i got to talk to ...lets call him "an old friend" that i have wanted to talk to for GOD 2 years.it broke my heartto know i hurt him so bad. i hope it is the begining to getting back the friendship we lost due to ....stupidity and mistakes.- ive missed him .

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anywho who ,i think im going to move back home.dont get me wrong i love richard to death ,but i think its time for a change .it might hurt to sleep and know he isnt there but thats the price i have to pay to find out if we are supposed to be together . wish life was eaiser to understand ...but as somone told me the othernight "life isnt fair you just have to go on "-guess its true ...

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today i will get up go to work .come home .and decide how im going to make sure he will be ok without me.-i cant just take eveything and leave him with nothing.:::::sigh:::::::::

cant keep doing this you know ,its just too hard .

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well i better go now n get to bed ,so i can go to work ...

and to my friend "you know who u r" i know you will call me soon .i hope you do -sheena